This year is bittersweet. We will be celebrating in Pa. with some of the family. My son is in Louisianna. I have not had the pleasure of celebrating Christmas with Eli in about 7 years. I miss him so very much during the holidays. He and Natalie will probably go to her parents house for a little while. Eli already told me he has to work at the restaurant later on Christmas day. Their Christmas card and gifts will not make it to them on time. I am SO BAD at getting things out on time. Procrastination is such a major downfall for me. I am trying to get better.
My youngest daughter is in California. Her husband is in the army and they are stationed at Ft. Irwin. They will be having Christmas by themselves this year with their beautiful family. I have been blessed that they have been able to celebrate Christmas with us in Maryland a couple of times. Last year I was able to go to their house in Georgia. Matt was in Iraq. Gator was 3 years old and Peaches was just under a year old. It was a wonderful time. And I got to see my Jack-a-Boo. Teenagers always brings a challenging mix to all who enter their domain!! :)
This year I will wake up on Christmas morning and watch Tiger and Minnow open their gifts, then run up the street and watch Spinner and Squiggles open theirs. I think this is the only time I am grateful for early risers and sleepy heads with my grandkids!! :)
The other day Spinner asked her parents about going to a Christmas Eve service because her curiosty about the birth of Jesus is starting to raise questions in her little 6 year old head. So it was decided we would all go to Denise's church for Christmas Eve service. The church will have refreshments and tell the Christmas story. Tiger and Minnow's mommy wasn't as excited about going to church, which breaks my heart. Yesterday I got quite vocal with my daughter about the true meaning of Christmas. When I got off the phone with her, I defiantly demanded of God to change her heart and attitude.This morning after some much needed quiet time, I found myself humbly begging God to work a change in my heart. And when I talked to Bre later on this morning she was talking about going to church Christmas Eve as if nothing was said about not going.
So, this Christmas season, the weather isn't what I expected, all the people I would like to see gathered around my table won't be there, I didn't get all the gifts out I wanted to on time, my house isn't decorated as I would like it to be, but in my heart I know the real reason I'm celebrating this holiday is because I believe a baby was born, to bring me hope, a reason to get up in the morning, a purpose in my personal life.
I love my family. I am blessed that God has put in my life wonderful people who give me the opportunity to look deep into my heart and know I cannot make it in this world without a savior.
I truely know..... Jesus is the reason for the season!!! :)
No comments:
Post a Comment